I am discovering that I fall into the latter category. I have a love/hate relationship with blogging... therefore it is so much easier to blog when I have nothing to do. Right now is not that time. My brain feels like it is spinning out of control, but then I have to remember that I asked for this. I wanted to be busy, I wanted to not have time to think. And I thrive off the busyness, so I am definitely not complaining. I love being busy and feeling busy. However, there are moments, like last night, when I felt incredibly overwhelmed because I have so many projects and so many things I am having to coordinate details for. In the middle of that, of coordinating orders and making plans and writing things down that I have to do today (blogging didn't make it on that list, incidentally), I was stopped in my tracks by a post on my personal facebook. It was a friend who is just starting her photography business. She had mentioned earlier in the day that she had gotten a new lens, I had replied asking what it was. When she replied back, suddenly everything zeroed in and for about half an hour, I forgot about everything else I had to do and all we did was chat back and forth about photography. What we loved, what we were learning, the appreciation of the art. When the conversation died down and I got ready to go to bed, I realized I felt invigorated again, and so very ready to tackle today. My mind was clear and focused. I had never lost the love of the art, even in the midst of my busy schedule, but I had lost my focus. I had lost the ability to stand back and say "wow, is this really my life?". So I did. I stepped back and said "Wow. I can't believe everything I hoped for last year is actually a reality this month."
It is so worth the work. But more, it is so worth the love.
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